MATRIX UNPLUGGED..AND RELOADED..AND DECODED....

WELL...
i am nowadays reading the matrix sereis theseis....the philosophy behind it and the the various hidden meanings inside it....
and boy....
i am flabbergasted to c the huge no. of replies that are coming to mine thread that i have started at the pagalguy.com...for discussion on the same ....

matrix is the most complex movie ever made....i actually go into bouts of thinking deeply when i start thinking on the various ideas and theories of the matrix....and i know only one thing that the deeper i go inside this ....the closer i come to the quintessential question....WHO I AM?

PsYcHo MUSINGS OF my mind......

well.....i am goin thru one of the most tumultous times of mine life......first...i am rejected by MICA....then, mine placement at hero cycles, ludhiana....then waiting endlessly for the imt ghaziabad result...my girlfriend now again reverting to her idea of not meeting in campus, after temporary happy period of college meetings with her, i donot have any money right now...and i am wondering how will i raise such a big amount ....umm...about 2300/ rs that i have taken loan from various friends.....
i know that nobody dies virgin...life fucks everybody....!!!

i am also experiencing the most worthless and pathetic fest of my college..principal has actually turned into a dictator and making things go his way, regardless of how we feel....and we r seeing the result...a terrible fest going on...with almost worthless participation and incompetent crowd....DAMN....complete waste..

then i have witnessed the dumping of our project ..the automated guided vehicle...we r dumping it for the reason that our team of five is not serious about its construction....it is final yr, and everyone is worrying or enjoyin...and taking no tensions...we have wasted almost rs 1000 on the parts of the model, and now i think that we have to buy out a ready made model.....
loads and loads of troubles....how do i find solutions to these problems?? what am i supposed to do but to curse the basis of my existence and shower angst against everythig around me...or on me....??

i will find solutions to all these problems.....soon.....very sooon.....

life rocks...